FUCK!
i am just so agitated and pissed off with everything.
as though i am having MPMS (Men's Pre Menstrual Syndrome). haha so lame innit.
on a Friday, i expect things to be very calm and peaceful.
since its the end of the weekday of roller coaster hell.
i really hoped that every Friday i will have a good one.
they say TGIF.
bullshit, nonsense here.
Thank God Its Friday?
there is still Saturday tomorrow.
TGIF - Think Great Is it Friday?
-_-
i am sleeping as i type. so that explains my boredom and disappointment.
for today.
absolutely disappointed.
whatever.
Friday, June 1
Sunday, January 8
i feel like writing.
although i do not know what to write.
haiz.
i am still frustrated.
with i dont know what.
feel like pampering myself.
maybe i should go fishing.
and feel the breeze.
and eat cold watermelon to sleep.
anyways, tomorrow is sunday.
i hope it will be a great day, where all my frustrations and angst will go away.
goodnight.
"most things are taken for granted in life, but we live once, would it be taken for granted then?", dale carnegie.
although i do not know what to write.
haiz.
i am still frustrated.
with i dont know what.
feel like pampering myself.
maybe i should go fishing.
and feel the breeze.
and eat cold watermelon to sleep.
anyways, tomorrow is sunday.
i hope it will be a great day, where all my frustrations and angst will go away.
goodnight.
"most things are taken for granted in life, but we live once, would it be taken for granted then?", dale carnegie.
Saturday, January 7
Thursday, January 5
psychologically its called, frustration.
been very irritable lately. like PMS-ing.
haha.
ok work now. FIGHT ON!
been very irritable lately. like PMS-ing.
haha.
ok work now. FIGHT ON!
Tuesday, January 3
FACT of life: something you need or want, rarely you will get.
FURY.
i just don't get it, neither could i in any way understand.
but it is a fact.
accept it or not it will be there until the universe ends.
maybe im just too affected.
with the smallest of things.
which can be ridiculous at times.
maybe all the time.
whatever.
why the FUCK must you criticize every single THING I DO?
im just an employee am i not?
for one year i have never EVER for once her you say "ok that looks great".
"why this", "put like that", "why you must do like that".
IM TIRED LEI, TIRED.
i don't get paid to get criticized.
a fee instances is ok, but all the time?
rationally think about it.
if everything NEEDS TO BE DONE YOUR WAY.
the you do it yourself.
NOTHING IS EVER RIGHT.
seriously TIRED.
it's not like i am a wall.
i WANT to be a good employee who contributes.
not who listens to your critique and critique and CRITIQUE every day.
SICK of it.
a lot of times i gave away suggestions.
new processes.
new methodologies.
you say its not enough.
its not this its not that.
YOU THINK YOU COULD LIVE A DAY LISTENING TO YOURSELF??
i doubt either.
i am also SICK of giving new ideas and voicing out.
because you never listen.
and think that i am trying to argue and override you.
so I PREFER TO KEEP QUIET.
i do not need a huge hamper to be recognised.
i do not ask for a huge new laptop to be regarded.
i just want to be appreciated.
thats all.
AND AT LEAST FOR ONCE.
let me get what i want.
and stop critisizing what i do.
FOR ONE WHOLE YEAR, i have not value added.
to my department in any way.
i swallow and keep my pain.
i follow and just listen.
but until when?
i have a career path to carve.
not following yours.
haiz.
i need a longer hug ):
FURY.
i just don't get it, neither could i in any way understand.
but it is a fact.
accept it or not it will be there until the universe ends.
maybe im just too affected.
with the smallest of things.
which can be ridiculous at times.
maybe all the time.
whatever.
why the FUCK must you criticize every single THING I DO?
im just an employee am i not?
for one year i have never EVER for once her you say "ok that looks great".
"why this", "put like that", "why you must do like that".
IM TIRED LEI, TIRED.
i don't get paid to get criticized.
a fee instances is ok, but all the time?
rationally think about it.
if everything NEEDS TO BE DONE YOUR WAY.
the you do it yourself.
NOTHING IS EVER RIGHT.
seriously TIRED.
it's not like i am a wall.
i WANT to be a good employee who contributes.
not who listens to your critique and critique and CRITIQUE every day.
SICK of it.
a lot of times i gave away suggestions.
new processes.
new methodologies.
you say its not enough.
its not this its not that.
YOU THINK YOU COULD LIVE A DAY LISTENING TO YOURSELF??
i doubt either.
i am also SICK of giving new ideas and voicing out.
because you never listen.
and think that i am trying to argue and override you.
so I PREFER TO KEEP QUIET.
i do not need a huge hamper to be recognised.
i do not ask for a huge new laptop to be regarded.
i just want to be appreciated.
thats all.
AND AT LEAST FOR ONCE.
let me get what i want.
and stop critisizing what i do.
FOR ONE WHOLE YEAR, i have not value added.
to my department in any way.
i swallow and keep my pain.
i follow and just listen.
but until when?
i have a career path to carve.
not following yours.
haiz.
i need a longer hug ):
